Today I realised I have a Serious Eating Disorder

Have you ever woken up and had a fist full of vitamins for breakfast? Well I do that everyday. Just because I'm not hungry in the morning, just a fistful of tablets and water is all I usually have. I also routinely skip a meal every now and then, so it's quite rare for me to actually eat 3 meals a day. I kinda just gaze on fruits if I ever feel hungry, Yeah it's not healthy under-eating like that but I look so good without a shirt on.

Being an anorexic narcissist is more likely then you think. Every time I wonder about my eating habits I just stare into a mirror before and after a shower and just admire myself. That may sound stupid to you but it might have something to do with my wavering levels of self-esteem at times. Then after that I go do 100 Push-Ups and eat 2 hard boiled eggs. Its been a month since I started to seriously do this "diet" and I lost 10kgs in just a few weeks. I Felt great because I looked great.

This can hardly be considered a diet, when you're skipping meals and replacing them with supplements and water and push-ups. I personally believed I was staying ahead of the curve by completely cutting out calories and just taking in vitamins. Well I paid for that today... I fainted from exhaustion and malnutrition I felt helpless there. Just laying on the floor as my body slowly shut down. I was scared but not terrified scared, just worried that I might have taken this whole dieting too far. After laying there for a few minutes I staggered to my feet, drank some water and just laid on the floor in the fetal position, recovering. After an hour I ate a Sandwich and now I'm here... Telling you about it, It wasn't fun and I don't plan on fainting again any time soon.

I'm reminded of a quote from Daria;

"It's better to look good, than to feel Good."

- Quinn Morgendorffer

That kind of shallow thinking can be dangerous if taken too literally. I didn't realise I was subconsciously starving myself skinny just to achieve this ridiculous body image of what I thought a real man looks like. Which of course just shows you how the Media's portal of what a Healthy is, is grossly inaccurate.

Frankly I blame Joel McHale....

Being Manorexic

To your left is a picture of Michael Fassbender playing a noble Spartan Warrior, you may also know him as Magneto from X-Men First Class. Anyway when you look at this picture do you see one of the Ultimate Spartan Warriors breed for Battle and Glory or do you see a Underweight Male Actor holding a pointy stick?

I google searched the socially trending term "Manorexic" to see what the results were, among the gaunt and scary looking skeletons with skin kind of body reserved for freak shows and spiritual Indian monks was the above picture. That's right, that picture of that supposedly superior warrior male is now considered (m)anorexic.

I dunno about you, but I thought that was interesting... If that were the case then I'm probably considered manorexic because I basically starved myself down to that size and work out like... A lot,

But that just might be narcissism.